HCG Shot

Last night I took my HCG Shot to get me ready for my egg retrieval! After the HCG shot you have to wait 48 hours for the egg retrieval. Mine is scheduled for tomorrow at 8:30am. No food or drink after midnight tonight! I am a little nervous for it but I am mostly excited.

This is what happens during an Egg Retrieval:

An egg retrieval typically takes place under some form of sedation, so you will not feel any pain. A needle is attached to an internal ultrasound probe, which is inserted into the vagina. The doctor uses the ultrasound to see the ovaries and locate the ovarian follicles. The needle punctures each follicle, and a gentle suction is applied to remove the egg and fluid within the follicle. An embryologist then evaluates the fluid and finds the egg. Sperm and eggs are placed together to allow fertilization to occur.

I am hoping for at least 10 good eggs. The whole process usually take about 30 mins! Scary but necessary to have a baby!

Lots of Good Eggs!

Today I went in for an ultrasound to see how my eggs are coming along.  They look great! I have a bunch of good sized follicles in both my ovaries and especially my right one.  Also my uterine stripe is very visible. The Dr. said that it was a very good indication that I could get pregnant. I go back again tomorrow to see what one more day of stimulation does for my follicles.  I am hoping I get to HCG trigger soon but I am going to be patient to make sure I get the most perfect sized eggs.  I am so excited I can hardly handle it! I am just feeling to so good about things! 

Things are Good!

Today as I was driving home enjoying the warm sunshine and seeing the beautiful world around me for the first time in a long time. I just had the most content and peaceful feeling. I found myself  thinking I just feel so good about my life, my IVF cycle, and all things in my life.  Things are just good.  I don't know what it is but I am happy, feeling good, and thinking things just might go my way.  I am even not dreading my shots every night. They hardly even hurt these day. Maybe I am just so used to shots now I don't really notice them.  Whatever it is I hope it sticks around.  I am just feeling like all is right in my world! 

All Ready to Go!

I had another ultrasound on Tuesday and my ovaries are finally doing what they are suppose to. 

Nothing.  So I have been given the green light to start my FSH drugs on Monday!  That means 3 shots in the tummy every day! Not fun but I am so excited to finally get going. I feel like I have been put on hold forever. Even though things haven't gone the way I expected..... I am really feeling so good about this cycle.  I just think that maybe the time it is right and this will all work out! 

Starting Lupron Again!

I started my Lupron shots again last night! I am excited I got the clear to start again. But who know if my body will respond that way it is suppose to! For now, I am going to be positive. I just have a good feeling about this! 

Complaining Parents

I don't know if it's spring fever or that fact that we keep getting snow but all I have heard from people lately are complaints about their kids. It makes me so upset!!! Do you know how lucky you are to have a child or children to complain about???? Do you know how I lay awake at night longing to be woken up by the sound of a crying baby?? Do you know how much it would make me smile to see crayon all over my perfect walls?? Do you know how bad I want to Windex off little finger prints from my windows?? So why all you parents out there complain about each crazy thing your child does..... Remember me the one that aches to have those tasks that you all get to do each and every day. Remember how lucky you are to have a child to hold in your arms. Remember when your child acts up and is complaining about what to wear, what to eat, and when they have to go to bed that I would trade you places in a heart beat.

Know that your children are blessings from God and that you are the blessed ones to have them in your life. Because I know you wouldn't want to trade all those little annoyances for my empty arms. So enjoy each day. Enjoy each mess. Enjoy those beautiful children that I so desperately want.

Starting Over

Well today at my ultrasound appointment they discovered that my cyst on my left ovary has gotten much bigger....it as big as a good sized apple. I also now have a cyst on my right ovary. So we can't start my cycle. They are worried that because my left cyst is so big it might flip and cut of bloods supply to my ovary which would make it die. That would be one more strike against getting pregnant. Lovely! So I am going back on birth control in the hopes it will shrink my cysts. If not I will have to have surgery to drain them. Fun Fun. This means I have to start all over. I go back on the 23th for another ultrasound to see how I am responding to the birth control. If they shrink I will be able to start my cycle all over again. For now it will delayed at least a month!

How do I feel about this....I guess deep down I knew that my cyst was still there. I didn't think I would have two giant ones. But what can you do??? As we were leaving the clinic I was complaining to my honey that I had it all planned. I wrote it down!!! He told me that he knows I like to have time frames and plans. But think of this as just one more step in the right direction and that will make sure I am perfect for my new cycle. I guess he is right. I don't want to go into a new cycle with any problems. However, I am a little disappointed and feel like a defect once again!

For now though I am going to have faith the what is suppose to happen will happen.

Hopefully what is suppose to happen will bring me a baby!