Ultrasound

Today I had my official ultrasound with a high risk Dr. at the hospital I will be delivering at. I was nervous. I just wanted to make sure my baby was healthy and wasn't missing any limbs or anything. We got taken back and the ultrasound began. I looked up on the screen and I couldn't even make out a baby. I had to ask the Dr. what I was looking at because she wasn't the best as explaining. To my relief we were just looking at the placenta and my uterus. After that the fun part began and we looked at all the parts of our little boy. His head, face, legs, spine, arms, hands, feet, stomach, and heart. The Dr. told me I had a perfect little boy growing inside me and I was so happy. It is amazing to see him moving all around flipping up and down. He is quite the active boy already. My favorite part was to see him with his arms above his head. My husband loves to sleep that way. I think my baby is going to be just like his dad because my whole pregnancy so far I have been craving anything tomato based (which I normally hate) and salt. Two of my husbands favorites!

I still can't believe that I am actually having a baby. Even with my belly growing I just can't seem to wrap my head around the fact I am going to be a Mom. It is truly a miracle to me. I find myself thinking of my little boy and wonder if he was just waiting for me to be ready for him. I think of the pain and struggle to actually get pregnant and wonder if he was watching, waiting, and whispering to me that it will soon happen and to just hold on and believe. I don't' know what it is with this little boy I am carrying but he brings me the most sense of calm I have ever experienced. I find myself happy and calm through all the crazy things around me. I just feel that everything will be okay. It is just our time to bring a baby into our home. Maybe we just weren't ready before. I have to say even though we have had many struggles since I have become pregnant. Before things just fell into place with everything in our lives that I just knew it was time. It would work out. Maybe it was our baby watching out and waiting for the right time. Knowing when the perfect to come to us would be. I must say I feel truly blessed to be pregnant and just know that our little boy is going to bring us so much love and happiness that we never knew before. I can't wait for the nights when I am awake with him nursing staring down and him and still not believing it is true. I just know I will have this same sense of calm.

Pictures of my Baby Boy!!!

16 weeks! You can see his whole body!! It's a Boy!!! This is a profile picture of my monkey!

Guess What???

On Monday I decided that we could go on Friday, for our sixth anniversary to the mall to the fetal ultrasound place to see what our baby was going to be.  So all week long I have been telling my husband how many more sleeps until the big day.  I could hardly wait.  I even tried to get him to take me on Wednesday but he held to our Friday commitment telling me our baby needed to grow for two more days. 

So today at work I looked up the place, called and made an appointment for 5:45. I was so anxious all day. I just wanted it to be five so I could go and find out. However, as it closer to the time I was getting more nervous. I don't know why.  I think I was worried that maybe my baby wouldn't be healthy or big enough.  I was just so nervous I was shaking on my way in. 

Well once we got there I calmed down a little the nice Dr. took us back into the room and dropped the goop on my belly. The ultrasound began.  It was amazing we could see its spine so clearly. The Dr showed us some great profile pics, feet, arms, legs, and head. He measured everything the make sure our baby was healthy.  He even showed us the stomach and bladder. We saw the placenta and even saw my little bug kicking me like crazy! The best part was when our sweet little baby actually stretched out all big!  Its spine, head, and neck all straighted out and our sweet baby had a big stretch!    It was super cute! 

But now you probably would like to know what we are having.... well if you believe old wives tales:

I have been having lots of headaches

I haven't too been sick

I have been craving lots of salty foods

Sweets make me sick 

All these things point t0.............

A Boy ! 

Yep we are having a precious baby boy! My nephews are so excited to have another boy in the boys club.  After we had the ultrasound we went out to dinner and then over to my sisters house to show our two nephews the pictures of our baby's wink.  They giggled with delight when the saw them. When we asked them what we should name him.  The littlest one immediately said Frazzle.  Why I don't know.  But I guess to a four year old that is a pretty cool name.  

We are really excited and can't wait to start buying and getting the nursery all ready! 

I will post the pictures when I can get them scanned they are pretty awesome and no doubt that it is a boy! 

Again I have been a major slacker and not posted. I am however doing much better. I am still getting headaches but I am feeling so much better about my pregnancy. I no longer think I am going to loose my baby and any given second. I am actually starting to believe I might make it to January just fine. I am starting to enjoy being pregnant and not worrying so much.

I had my second prenatal appointment last week. I love going to them even if all I do is pee in cup. I am enjoying every second of doing all the things that pregnant people do. I am actually going to get my ultrasound next month. I can't wait to find out what my baby is going to be. I am hoping for a girl but will be happy with a boy as well. My nephews want a boy because they think our family has too many girls. My sisters of course what a girl. I think I might go to the mall in a few weeks to see if they can tell on the 3D ultrasounds. So I will let you all know the second I found out!

As for my changing body it is weird. I seem to be getting all the ugly side affects of being pregnant. I won't go into details because they are ugly! I am starting to show but not the oh she is cute and pregnant just the has she gained weight or is she pregnant stage. Not cute! But I can't wait for my belly to get bigger so I can actually look pregnant. One of my nephews said to me the other day at dinner whoa your belly is huge. Not quite yet but thanks for making me feel chubbo!

Sorry for the rambling just thought it was time to update!

Keep your fingers crossed for a girl!

Headaches, Headaches, and more Headaches

Sorry I haven't posted in a bit! I have just not been feeling well lately.  I have been suffering from major headaches. I go to bed with them. I wake up with them.  I have had a headache for 3 days so far. I That doesn't even count the the one I had earlier this week that made me throw up all night long.  I just lay in bed and hold my head until I can fall asleep. So lesson learned??  Don't believe it when people say pregnancy makes your headaches stop! 

Bleeding

I spent yesterday evening in the ER.  I awoke from a nap yesterday and noticed I was bleeding. Not light spotting seriously bleeding. I started panic.  I grabbed my husband and ran to the ER. When they checked my vitals my heartbeat was over 100 bpm.  I was so terrified that after all this I was losing my baby.  

It took forever to be seen.  However,  as we sat in the room my honey keep trying to keep me clam.  I was just sitting on the bed ready to cry when all the sudden I had the most peaceful feeling. The same peaceful feeling I have had this whole cycle.  I began to relax while my husband continued to freak out. Finally the Dr. came in and ask about my history and pregnancy.  When he realized that I had conceived through IVF and saw how scared we were he said he would call in an ultrasound. He also said he would  also go grab a smaller ultrasound machine so we could see if my baby had a heartbeat.  He couldn't  have been a nicer Dr.  He left and we continued to wait finally I see him coming down the hall with the ultrasound machine. He put the goop on my belly and and showed us our little baby with a heartbeat and it was moving all around.  Now we just had to wait for the real ultrasound technician to perform a more technical ultrasound.  I am so glad the Dr. gave us a quick ultrasound because it took another 2 hours to finally get my ultrasound.  It calmed us down a bit but we were still anxious. 

Finally the technician came and got me.  They wouldn't let my honey go.  Which upset us both. She took me back to the room and asked me a bunch of questions again. Finally she proceeded with the ultrasound.  My baby had a heartbeat of 175 bpm.  It was moving all around and it even waved at me.  She then proceeded to check my uterus, ovaries, she then looked for the placenta and the other sac which she couldn't really tell it if was there or not.  She thinks my body has absorbed it.  I don't know.  She told me every thing looked good.  Then wheeled me back to my room and said it would take about 30 mins for the results. 

Again we waited this time for an hour.  Finally the Dr. came in with the official diagnosis of small crescentic fluid suggested surrounding the gestational sac which may present subchorionic hemorrhage.  Whatever that means.  The ultrasound tech told me she thinks the placenta hasn't fully attached because I am still so early in my pregnancy and it is still forming. She said I should be okay within another week.   They also told me that I should be on bed rest again until I stop bleeding and to follow up with my Dr. in a week. 

So here I am again in bed. Still worrying if I am going to be able to carry my precious miracle to full term.  I find my self constantly saying the same prayer over and over again. Just hoping that my chance of becoming a mother doesn't slip away. 

Finally an Update

I had my Ultrasound on June 5th. The first picture is of my baby's perfect little heartbeat! 125 bpm! The second show my little baby and then another little sack that split! But there wasn't anything in them. I must say I so happy and excited and little relieved that it is not triplets! However, at this point I will take what I can get and be grateful.

I also had my first prenatal appointment. I was so excited to finally be seeing a doctor because I am pregnant and not because I am trying to get that way! I got to again see my little baby and it is so much bigger and moving all around inside. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen!

I have to say that I am completely overwhelmed with joy and happiness that I am finally going to be a mom! I carry my little pictures around with me and look at them all the time. When I am at a red light or just want to be able to connect with my little bug growing inside.

As far as pregnancy symptoms go I have been very lucky. I do not get sick in the morning thank heavens! I usually get sick at night and soda crackers usually cure my yuckiness. I have however, been getting lots of headaches. This sucks because I can only take Tylenol. So basically I just suffer until I can get to sleep. Other than that I am doing and feeling great just tired a lot. I usually take a nap after work everyday.

I do have some other good news too! I am officially 10 weeks today and tonight it is my last shot of progesterone! Yeah I can't believe it. I have been counting down for weeks. I don't know what we are going to do every night at 9pm. without a shot. It will be freedom to not have to be tied down to a shot for the first time in months!

I promise to keep my blog updated more. So keep checking back!