Complaining Parents

I don't know if it's spring fever or that fact that we keep getting snow but all I have heard from people lately are complaints about their kids. It makes me so upset!!! Do you know how lucky you are to have a child or children to complain about???? Do you know how I lay awake at night longing to be woken up by the sound of a crying baby?? Do you know how much it would make me smile to see crayon all over my perfect walls?? Do you know how bad I want to Windex off little finger prints from my windows?? So why all you parents out there complain about each crazy thing your child does..... Remember me the one that aches to have those tasks that you all get to do each and every day. Remember how lucky you are to have a child to hold in your arms. Remember when your child acts up and is complaining about what to wear, what to eat, and when they have to go to bed that I would trade you places in a heart beat.

Know that your children are blessings from God and that you are the blessed ones to have them in your life. Because I know you wouldn't want to trade all those little annoyances for my empty arms. So enjoy each day. Enjoy each mess. Enjoy those beautiful children that I so desperately want.

Starting Over

Well today at my ultrasound appointment they discovered that my cyst on my left ovary has gotten much bigger....it as big as a good sized apple. I also now have a cyst on my right ovary. So we can't start my cycle. They are worried that because my left cyst is so big it might flip and cut of bloods supply to my ovary which would make it die. That would be one more strike against getting pregnant. Lovely! So I am going back on birth control in the hopes it will shrink my cysts. If not I will have to have surgery to drain them. Fun Fun. This means I have to start all over. I go back on the 23th for another ultrasound to see how I am responding to the birth control. If they shrink I will be able to start my cycle all over again. For now it will delayed at least a month!

How do I feel about this....I guess deep down I knew that my cyst was still there. I didn't think I would have two giant ones. But what can you do??? As we were leaving the clinic I was complaining to my honey that I had it all planned. I wrote it down!!! He told me that he knows I like to have time frames and plans. But think of this as just one more step in the right direction and that will make sure I am perfect for my new cycle. I guess he is right. I don't want to go into a new cycle with any problems. However, I am a little disappointed and feel like a defect once again!

For now though I am going to have faith the what is suppose to happen will happen.

Hopefully what is suppose to happen will bring me a baby!