Monday, June 29, 2009

Bleeding

I spent yesterday evening in the ER.  I awoke from a nap yesterday and noticed I was bleeding. Not light spotting seriously bleeding. I started panic.  I grabbed my husband and ran to the ER. When they checked my vitals my heartbeat was over 100 bpm.  I was so terrified that after all this I was losing my baby.  

It took forever to be seen.  However,  as we sat in the room my honey keep trying to keep me clam.  I was just sitting on the bed ready to cry when all the sudden I had the most peaceful feeling. The same peaceful feeling I have had this whole cycle.  I began to relax while my husband continued to freak out. Finally the Dr. came in and ask about my history and pregnancy.  When he realized that I had conceived through IVF and saw how scared we were he said he would call in an ultrasound. He also said he would  also go grab a smaller ultrasound machine so we could see if my baby had a heartbeat.  He couldn't  have been a nicer Dr.  He left and we continued to wait finally I see him coming down the hall with the ultrasound machine. He put the goop on my belly and and showed us our little baby with a heartbeat and it was moving all around.  Now we just had to wait for the real ultrasound technician to perform a more technical ultrasound.  I am so glad the Dr. gave us a quick ultrasound because it took another 2 hours to finally get my ultrasound.  It calmed us down a bit but we were still anxious. 

Finally the technician came and got me.  They wouldn't let my honey go.  Which upset us both. She took me back to the room and asked me a bunch of questions again. Finally she proceeded with the ultrasound.  My baby had a heartbeat of 175 bpm.  It was moving all around and it even waved at me.  She then proceeded to check my uterus, ovaries, she then looked for the placenta and the other sac which she couldn't really tell it if was there or not.  She thinks my body has absorbed it.  I don't know.  She told me every thing looked good.  Then wheeled me back to my room and said it would take about 30 mins for the results. 

Again we waited this time for an hour.  Finally the Dr. came in with the official diagnosis of small crescentic fluid suggested surrounding the gestational sac which may present subchorionic hemorrhage.  Whatever that means.  The ultrasound tech told me she thinks the placenta hasn't fully attached because I am still so early in my pregnancy and it is still forming. She said I should be okay within another week.   They also told me that I should be on bed rest again until I stop bleeding and to follow up with my Dr. in a week. 

So here I am again in bed. Still worrying if I am going to be able to carry my precious miracle to full term.  I find my self constantly saying the same prayer over and over again. Just hoping that my chance of becoming a mother doesn't slip away. 

Friday, June 26, 2009

Finally an Update


I had my Ultrasound on June 5th. The first picture is of my baby's perfect little heartbeat! 125 bpm! The second show my little baby and then another little sack that split! But there wasn't anything in them. I must say I so happy and excited and little relieved that it is not triplets! However, at this point I will take what I can get and be grateful.
I also had my first prenatal appointment. I was so excited to finally be seeing a doctor because I am pregnant and not because I am trying to get that way! I got to again see my little baby and it is so much bigger and moving all around inside. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen!
I have to say that I am completely overwhelmed with joy and happiness that I am finally going to be a mom! I carry my little pictures around with me and look at them all the time. When I am at a red light or just want to be able to connect with my little bug growing inside.
As far as pregnancy symptoms go I have been very lucky. I do not get sick in the morning thank heavens! I usually get sick at night and soda crackers usually cure my yuckiness. I have however, been getting lots of headaches. This sucks because I can only take Tylenol. So basically I just suffer until I can get to sleep. Other than that I am doing and feeling great just tired a lot. I usually take a nap after work everyday.
I do have some other good news too! I am officially 10 weeks today and tonight it is my last shot of progesterone! Yeah I can't believe it. I have been counting down for weeks. I don't know what we are going to do every night at 9pm. without a shot. It will be freedom to not have to be tied down to a shot for the first time in months!
I promise to keep my blog updated more. So keep checking back!